It is the day after Thanksgiving. The food in my stomach is finally starting to settle. The day was filled with family and good times. I am so thankful for all that exists in my life. Now I could create a list of positive, wonderful, experiences, but that just wouldn't be enough. You see I'm thankful for EVERYTHING in my life, YES EVERYTHING, even that stuff. That list of bad things, that list of mean people, that list of terrible, awful, unreal things, that happens to all of us when we least expect it. Ok, do I have your attention? Are you saying, "What the Hell did he just say?" But it is true. all throughout my life I have fought the bad stuff off. screaming, "Why me! I don't deserve this Sh@*! Is this my Karma for something mean I did years ago?" But being 50 years old has its privileges. The world becomes, a little more understandable in all of it many facets. Instead of saying, "Why", I say, "OK". Don't get me wrong, I still get peeved when the bad stuff happens, but it is just that now I realize there just might be a lesson for me to learn here and perhaps God is setting up something that hasn't been shown to me yet. Throughout my life months or years later, I see the reason for the stuff that has happen, and all the complaining, fighting, cursing, and why me ended up being a waste of time and energy. These terrible periods had a reason and now I am a better person because of them, and I have learned so much from all these different situations. I lost my job recently, during a period of bad sales, and a constant string of DRAMA and difficult times. But after the normal frustrated reactions, I quickly realize something wonderful is going to follow this. I know there is a reason for this to happen to me. So instead of blaming someone else, or retelling my terrible victim hood a thousand times, until even I am even sick of hearing it, I simple accept it and start looking for the reason and the new doors opening up for me with new challenges, and new lessons, and new wonders to behold. Sure sometimes more problems unfold before the good ones, but the good ones eventually come, if I don't give up and I keep the faith.
So, Thank you for EVERYTHING. Thank you Universe, for the manure for my garden. Thank you for the storm, that cleaned the sky of all the pollutants. Thank you for the persecutor who aided in ending my relationship that I couldn't leave on my own. Thank you for helping me get fired, so I have time to start a new career, and take my parents to Las Vegas so that I could help my step-father get around. Thank you for the time to let me help my sister study for her college classes and teach her how to be a better student and study wiser. Thank you for the help she gave me financially for helping her and the stronger connection we have formed because of it all. Thank you for the time to breath and think and grow. Thank you for EVERYTHING even that Sh#%, my garden needed it and it is beautiful and the cat-tallies are in bloom.
Richard Nedervelt
11/26/2010
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